12/15/2008

B. dun worry me,i think i'll be fine this time.although its really hurt me, u made my heart full of tears.but i'll try to make it again just like before. left it down n let it go.
since the worstest period gone, i've been strong enough to handle these, nothing can defeat me now. n u also, darling, everyone hv their own mistake just depend how to forgive n forget by yrself. yea! im still that stupid angel, all bcoz i love u! but after this i m not sure that i can hv faith on u on me. i can't see, i can't find future, everything on u seem is unclear unfamiliar!
anyway, i m glad u a brave to face it this time. love u!

今朝曾經諗過嘗試再接受你原諒你，只因為你肯坦白！但當我發現你再講大話既時候，我就知道我要心死，因為你所有所有所有對我講既都係大話！我已經唔識你，睇唔到分唔出邊個係你！你要我知不突只仲要我見…我崩潰喇你滿足未？你迫我再度走回頭路！一次又一次我玩唔起！我放棄！我要心死！
我唔知點樣相信你既承諾？你點樣愛我點樣一齊行落去？點樣證明？而依核所有諾言我覺得只會令我失望，因為全部都係挽留我既既話並非出自真心！我太了解你！


From Him
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11:42am Thx.. I dunno what to say.. Plz get some rest.. Miss u

17:28pm Ben n jeff was really there, all i did was just playing fire... After everything every pressure i have been throught, i just wanted to be crazy n not concern abt others... I know i hv hurt u... But i dunno why i did that..

19:31pm I really miss you...

20:12pm I screwed up and i am very regret for what i did. I hv problem and i made a lot of mistakes, after august i already think i m the worst person ever, thats why i just let go n do all the shit.. And then i knew i miss u, but i was scared, scared of going back to u n wondering if that was the right thing, but the more i be with u the more i love u, i didnt say it just becoz i was scared, scared of taking responsibility... But in the pass 2 week, i was clear.. Started think i should stop all this shit.. And focus on what i got.. Now i lost u, lost the one who care of me most... What happen to me next i deserve it, maybe u r too good for me, i dun deserve u.. What i think helpless is why when i wanna be good, god didnt give me chance... When i wanna start saving, i lost money, when i wanna start giving, god doesnt give me any chance... maybe i did too much bad stuff.. Its a punishment... what i wanna say is... I love u n will always love u.

22:59pm can i hear ur voice?