I m so scare.
scared to know the truth.
scared to discover something not suppose to be seen.
scared to receive mgs n pics fm those gals that related u.
the worst which i scared is to hear that u a leaving me
hurt me again n lie again.
i m so tried, no more energy, no anymore!
dun brave enoung to forgive
no reason to accept myself to forget
everything u made me mad u made me sad
i m so scare that selfish u come again
pls set me free
i just left that tiny pure heart
waiting for whom would love me, protect me, theature me
willing to create a family with me & holding my hand to across every single day.
no matter how worst the day will be, he would always beside me.
星期三, 12月 31, 2008
星期一, 12月 29, 2008
tired
i feel so tire
i ran out the door
not sure m i right or wrong
i keep on walking
at the same time
my heart keep on breaking
i found a place
it showing 'i feel good'
i sat down there & think about 'm i good' at all
it should hear the sound of mirth here
but why i could only cry in here
.......
repeat to ask myself why
i ran out the door
not sure m i right or wrong
i keep on walking
at the same time
my heart keep on breaking
i found a place
it showing 'i feel good'
i sat down there & think about 'm i good' at all
it should hear the sound of mirth here
but why i could only cry in here
.......
repeat to ask myself why
星期日, 12月 28, 2008
Recollected blog
The first day we meet
星期五, 三月 30, 2007
The first date
星期日, 四月 1, 2007
The first kiss
星期三, 四月 4, 2007
The first felt complicated
星期六, 四月 7, 2007
The first lost
星期一, 四月 9, 2007
The first you held my hand
星期六, 四月 13, 2007
Everything about our beginning
I tried to rememmber
星期五, 三月 30, 2007
The first date
星期日, 四月 1, 2007
The first kiss
星期三, 四月 4, 2007
The first felt complicated
星期六, 四月 7, 2007
The first lost
星期一, 四月 9, 2007
The first you held my hand
星期六, 四月 13, 2007
Everything about our beginning
I tried to rememmber
星期六, 12月 27, 2008
clouds
Breaking through the clouds,
I tried hard to run to you
Just when love arrived,
you were already in someone else’s arms
My whole heart hangs in the air,
I can only watch from afar
I can do all these things but that person is already not me
Tell me where the rainbow is
Could you still give me back my wish
Why is the sky so silent?
All of the clouds are running to me
Is there a mask for me?
Recalling too much of the past words can accomplish nothing
Perhaps time is a kind of antidote
And also the first poison I'm taking now
Your silhouette is so close to me, yet I cannot embrace it
Without earth, the sun can still circle around
Without reasons, I also can walk alone
You want to go away, I know that is very easy
You said dependence is our obstacle
but couldn't you not receive my love
Assuming I'm the last to understand
I tried hard to run to you
Just when love arrived,
you were already in someone else’s arms
My whole heart hangs in the air,
I can only watch from afar
I can do all these things but that person is already not me
Tell me where the rainbow is
Could you still give me back my wish
Why is the sky so silent?
All of the clouds are running to me
Is there a mask for me?
Recalling too much of the past words can accomplish nothing
Perhaps time is a kind of antidote
And also the first poison I'm taking now
Your silhouette is so close to me, yet I cannot embrace it
Without earth, the sun can still circle around
Without reasons, I also can walk alone
You want to go away, I know that is very easy
You said dependence is our obstacle
but couldn't you not receive my love
Assuming I'm the last to understand
星期五, 12月 26, 2008
Boxing Day
唔知係因為飲得太多
今日成日個頭都好痛
由其是右腦
起身又係一點多
由開眼個刻右腦就冇停過
所有今年開心唔開心衝晒出黎
當然今年唔開心個一方面多好多啦
所以就可能咁整日都比右腦影響
我依稀記得
晏晝去租神棎
食過清湯腩
之後又去灣仔買氣
再去中環睇野不過冇開門
一個人係車度等左一陣
返左西環屋企羅d野
去左永興街再等一陣
食左杯vanila雪糕
係佢屋企留下等左一陣
一個人攞左d衫返上去
換左衫一個人休息左一陣
頭好痛好痛訓左一陣
發左一個好怪既夢
開著眼一直等一直等
右腦一樣一直諗一直諗
boxing day
我好似唔係我
講過咩做過咩
都唔受控制
但我又好清楚
其實我表現出來既都係從心而發
或者係抑壓左好耐
x'mas飲既酒仲未醉醒
唔想講都講埋出黎
不過都好
起碼心舒服左d
今日成日個頭都好痛
由其是右腦
起身又係一點多
由開眼個刻右腦就冇停過
所有今年開心唔開心衝晒出黎
當然今年唔開心個一方面多好多啦
所以就可能咁整日都比右腦影響
我依稀記得
晏晝去租神棎
食過清湯腩
之後又去灣仔買氣
再去中環睇野不過冇開門
一個人係車度等左一陣
返左西環屋企羅d野
去左永興街再等一陣
食左杯vanila雪糕
係佢屋企留下等左一陣
一個人攞左d衫返上去
換左衫一個人休息左一陣
頭好痛好痛訓左一陣
發左一個好怪既夢
開著眼一直等一直等
右腦一樣一直諗一直諗
boxing day
我好似唔係我
講過咩做過咩
都唔受控制
但我又好清楚
其實我表現出來既都係從心而發
或者係抑壓左好耐
x'mas飲既酒仲未醉醒
唔想講都講埋出黎
不過都好
起碼心舒服左d
星期四, 12月 25, 2008
星期三, 12月 24, 2008
星期二, 12月 23, 2008
MAKE A WISH
my dearest friends,
pls help to find back that ordinary me
pls guide me the correct direction
pls warn me if there a no exit way
teach me how to start a new life again
advise me which is truth which is false
give me a big hug when i was discouraged
listen to me if my mind was chaos
talk to me when i muse about nothing
sing a song with me while i found my happiness
love me always as i love u so
sweet smile will come again
pls help to find back that ordinary me
pls guide me the correct direction
pls warn me if there a no exit way
teach me how to start a new life again
advise me which is truth which is false
give me a big hug when i was discouraged
listen to me if my mind was chaos
talk to me when i muse about nothing
sing a song with me while i found my happiness
love me always as i love u so
sweet smile will come again
Pls guide me out
眼角忽然湧出淚水，心刺著痛！
恨自己為何要相信你，
罵自己為何要原諒你，
害自己變得癡呆及癲狂！
本來好好的一個人為何要用藥丸才可過日子？
我有被虐待的習慣嗎？
誰可救救我？
很想恨恨大叫逃離，
卻無力掙扎無法遠離
你是愛我嗎？
愛我還是擁有我？
我就是這樣悲哀，
我哭了
恨自己為何要相信你，
罵自己為何要原諒你，
害自己變得癡呆及癲狂！
本來好好的一個人為何要用藥丸才可過日子？
我有被虐待的習慣嗎？
誰可救救我？
很想恨恨大叫逃離，
卻無力掙扎無法遠離
你是愛我嗎？
愛我還是擁有我？
我就是這樣悲哀，
我哭了
星期一, 12月 22, 2008
星期日, 12月 21, 2008
Could U remmember?
do u rememmber this mail?
what i told u what i warned u b4!
but u hurt me again n again.
there a no way to turn back no more chance for u anymore.
--- 2008年10月30日 星期四 ---
寄件人: angel lam
主題: Re: words
收件人: "Liu Stan"
日期: 2008 10 30 星期四 下午 5:45
從你第一次拖我對手決定同你一齊開始，我已經放棄我原本所有。
但我從冇計較同冇諗過要跟你有什麼將來什麼家庭…
因為我覺得已不切實際，就算我跟上一個同我一齊左八年已計劃好家庭既人，而你同一個已經同你結婚一齊生活左六年既人，倒頭來都係同一結局！
而你又會係第一次拖我第一次錫我個時睇到我哋有將來嗎？
我唔係要你返嚟我身邊，我只不過覺得你係咪俾自己太多借口，會唔會諗得太多，係咪自私左啲呢？
加上你已經有左決定，已選擇左去向！我已經放底你停止自己再去愛既時候！
唔明白點解你又要我返嚟你身邊？到第二朝又可以繼續做你自私既角色嘛！真係可以當發夢一樣嗎？
你覺得冇將來個時就可以分開？你遇到壓力孤單一個就需要我？究竟我係你心目中係咩角色？有理過我感受嘛？口口聲聲唔想傷害我，但偏偏又被你再次傷害！我做唔到當咩事都冇發生過！被你攬住，訓係你身邊所有所有……
我唔係要攞咩公道，要你做什麼什麼…
因為一切只怪我自己心軟，只怪自己on居
希望你有認認真真珍惜過我為你做過每一樣既事！
因為有啲嘢一旦做左…錯失左，就已經冇得返轉頭！
--- 2008年10月28日 星期二 ---
寄件人: Liu Stan
主題: words
收件人: angel lam
日期: 2008 10 28 星期二 下午 7:53
Thanks for sending me the photos.
I just wanna say whatever I did I am sorry...
At this very moment I miss you, and I missed you while I was in Tibet.
There was love I can tell you... from the bottom of my heart... and I know you did too... so true.
I had this dream we were diving again and I woke up in tears, dunno why...but I have to do this...it has been a while I have been thinking we dont belong to each other...since Aug
doesnt mean I went out to seek for anyone, I was still there, with you and pae, but what I thought is... if I don't see you and I will have a family, I dont want to get hurt deeper in the future, yes...I am selfish I know you need help at the moment.. no, you needed me. but I didn't know what to do, yes I am selfish.You were looking after me all the time...and I appreciated...very much..
but this moment, I need sometime, I need sometime to be away from you, I need sometime to pick up myself. i don't know what will happen, but I am sure I will love pae the rest of my life.
Please forgive me, Angel. Hope you get well very very soon.
what i told u what i warned u b4!
but u hurt me again n again.
there a no way to turn back no more chance for u anymore.
--- 2008年10月30日 星期四 ---
寄件人: angel lam
主題: Re: words
收件人: "Liu Stan"
日期: 2008 10 30 星期四 下午 5:45
從你第一次拖我對手決定同你一齊開始，我已經放棄我原本所有。
但我從冇計較同冇諗過要跟你有什麼將來什麼家庭…
因為我覺得已不切實際，就算我跟上一個同我一齊左八年已計劃好家庭既人，而你同一個已經同你結婚一齊生活左六年既人，倒頭來都係同一結局！
而你又會係第一次拖我第一次錫我個時睇到我哋有將來嗎？
我唔係要你返嚟我身邊，我只不過覺得你係咪俾自己太多借口，會唔會諗得太多，係咪自私左啲呢？
加上你已經有左決定，已選擇左去向！我已經放底你停止自己再去愛既時候！
唔明白點解你又要我返嚟你身邊？到第二朝又可以繼續做你自私既角色嘛！真係可以當發夢一樣嗎？
你覺得冇將來個時就可以分開？你遇到壓力孤單一個就需要我？究竟我係你心目中係咩角色？有理過我感受嘛？口口聲聲唔想傷害我，但偏偏又被你再次傷害！我做唔到當咩事都冇發生過！被你攬住，訓係你身邊所有所有……
我唔係要攞咩公道，要你做什麼什麼…
因為一切只怪我自己心軟，只怪自己on居
希望你有認認真真珍惜過我為你做過每一樣既事！
因為有啲嘢一旦做左…錯失左，就已經冇得返轉頭！
--- 2008年10月28日 星期二 ---
寄件人: Liu Stan
主題: words
收件人: angel lam
日期: 2008 10 28 星期二 下午 7:53
Thanks for sending me the photos.
I just wanna say whatever I did I am sorry...
At this very moment I miss you, and I missed you while I was in Tibet.
There was love I can tell you... from the bottom of my heart... and I know you did too... so true.
I had this dream we were diving again and I woke up in tears, dunno why...but I have to do this...it has been a while I have been thinking we dont belong to each other...since Aug
doesnt mean I went out to seek for anyone, I was still there, with you and pae, but what I thought is... if I don't see you and I will have a family, I dont want to get hurt deeper in the future, yes...I am selfish I know you need help at the moment.. no, you needed me. but I didn't know what to do, yes I am selfish.You were looking after me all the time...and I appreciated...very much..
but this moment, I need sometime, I need sometime to be away from you, I need sometime to pick up myself. i don't know what will happen, but I am sure I will love pae the rest of my life.
Please forgive me, Angel. Hope you get well very very soon.
12/21/2008
Daring,I had fulfill what you want today,to hold ur hand onthe street once again and smile in front of u onceagain... But i can't love u anymore!once u did it, there is no way to turn back.we have to be responsible on everything we hv done, doing, will do.I couldn't forget what u did what u lied..everything...evrything on me!while i try to be calm, all horrible scene will be appeared!i had a very hard life after everything revealed.is a great pain for me!which way should i go now? i dun know!pls leave me in peace.what i want is just a warmth truthful love.
I am sorry!pls let me go...
Stan 已送出 2008/12/21 上午 01:58:i know u are there
寄件人: Liu Stan
主題: My little Angel..
日期: 2008 12 21 星期日 上午 2:02
Can we have a new start? without look back? maybe I am stupid, but I know you still love me, and I love you, more and more..
I am sorry!pls let me go...
Stan 已送出 2008/12/21 上午 01:58:i know u are there
寄件人: Liu Stan
主題: My little Angel..
日期: 2008 12 21 星期日 上午 2:02
Can we have a new start? without look back? maybe I am stupid, but I know you still love me, and I love you, more and more..
星期六, 12月 20, 2008
12/20/2008
當我一靜落嚟你哋兩個既畫面就會不自覺浮現眼前所以我根本冇可能去原諒你…
你離唔離開都好，都已經於事無補！因為我已經再次受傷冇嘢可以補償！我怕喇！我怕再信錯你喇！
傻瓜
From Him
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12:55am 我知只要不斷有開心嘅畫面你就會慢慢忘記，你唔會再信錯我，因為我唔會再講大話…我只希望有機會有一天會叫你一聲老婆，和看到啤啤一天一天的老…
1:00am 不用急著回應我，你好好休息吧！我走了
5:31am I miss u so much...
5:33am Couldnt sleep well, all i can think of is u.
9:06am keep urself warm, i got sick, my throat is burning n running nose...hope i didnt pass u the cold... How r u feeling today? I m thinking of u...
12:37pm Miss u so, i m screaming ur name... Dunno if u could hear it..
你離唔離開都好，都已經於事無補！因為我已經再次受傷冇嘢可以補償！我怕喇！我怕再信錯你喇！
傻瓜
From Him
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12:55am 我知只要不斷有開心嘅畫面你就會慢慢忘記，你唔會再信錯我，因為我唔會再講大話…我只希望有機會有一天會叫你一聲老婆，和看到啤啤一天一天的老…
1:00am 不用急著回應我，你好好休息吧！我走了
5:31am I miss u so much...
5:33am Couldnt sleep well, all i can think of is u.
9:06am keep urself warm, i got sick, my throat is burning n running nose...hope i didnt pass u the cold... How r u feeling today? I m thinking of u...
12:37pm Miss u so, i m screaming ur name... Dunno if u could hear it..
星期五, 12月 19, 2008
12/19/2008
送給你的：
一個不曾經過痛苦和挫折的人，永遠不知道幸福的滋味有多甜美。一切的苦樂、成敗，在一開始選擇時，其實就已經註定了。
給我自己：
人生的苦樂來自自己的選擇，過快樂的生活還是過悲苦的日子，從來都不在別人手中，幸福就在於該要後退的時候，千萬別硬要前進。後退一步，可以讓視野更開闊，把事物的面貌看得更清楚。
既然你仍然俾佢揾得到你，而你又會繼續揾佢。加上之前你對我所做既事，你估我會唔會再相信你？
依幾日我睇得清楚，你做過同埋冇做過咩？有冇去證明？我一一都好清楚！
我唔介意佢對我做既事，因為我一啲都唔CARE…最醜惡既人我都已經遇上，佢只不過太幼稚！
我祝福你哋！
From Him
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3:57am 我傷害左你同佢，依刻佢揾我只可能佢無助，同唔甘心…佢怪我選擇你而我唔見佢… 這幾天我沒有別的，只有想著你的好，然後給你寫個短訊告訴你我想念你…傻傻的走到你家樓下看能不能看到你一眼…我沒給你証明到什麼，我根本找不到你，對我所做過的就只有別人告訴的… 我也不知道告訴了什麼，我不在乎…我只知道我真的愛你在乎你，最少我証明了給自己知道 … 你生氣，不原諒我…我明白也無能力一下子改變得了…但我想你知道我真的為你在慢慢改…但我知可能到時你已經不再愛我了。不用祝褔我跟他…我不會和他在一起，就算我寂寞…我要的是你。請不要攻擊我的話，我知錯了後我是真心的。我很想念你。
5:13am 我真的很想念你…
8:16am I still wanna spend the christmas with u...
11:08am 我只希望用時間用一点一滴的快樂去改變…
11:53am 我只希望你可以試，就算是朋友做起也好… 我會俾一切你知，唔再講大話
12:02pm 我是真心知錯的…對你的傷害，我想去補救…
12:05pm 先別說不能…我真的不想放棄你
14:05pm I really miss u, cant stop thinking of u...
15:28pm 我很愛妳…很想很想妳。
18:24pm 我也開始覺得自己煩了…但我真的很掛念妳…
21:57pm 我又傻傻的來到你家樓下，不知為什麼就只想見你…我願意去承擔對你所做的一切…我之前就像中了邪一樣，但本來的我不是那樣的，就請你見一見我吧… 為你，我願意等…
22:07pm 一直在想你的好，心就一直在痛…一直在痛…
23:57pm 我真的捨不得離開…就坐在車內想著你…你好好休息吧！我愛你…Angel… 謝謝你下來看我。很想念你，很想念啤。
一個不曾經過痛苦和挫折的人，永遠不知道幸福的滋味有多甜美。一切的苦樂、成敗，在一開始選擇時，其實就已經註定了。
給我自己：
人生的苦樂來自自己的選擇，過快樂的生活還是過悲苦的日子，從來都不在別人手中，幸福就在於該要後退的時候，千萬別硬要前進。後退一步，可以讓視野更開闊，把事物的面貌看得更清楚。
既然你仍然俾佢揾得到你，而你又會繼續揾佢。加上之前你對我所做既事，你估我會唔會再相信你？
依幾日我睇得清楚，你做過同埋冇做過咩？有冇去證明？我一一都好清楚！
我唔介意佢對我做既事，因為我一啲都唔CARE…最醜惡既人我都已經遇上，佢只不過太幼稚！
我祝福你哋！
我真傻…睡夢中突然醒來立即打開電話想給你知道我想念你，還沒有收到你的短訊時仍然刻意控制自己！迫自己忘記你，提醒自己要記得所有你對我做過的！我清楚自己我有多愛你包容你，所以結果傷害自己！我從不後悔我愛你，放棄所有都去愛你，但每當我最愛你的時候發現你從不愛自己，當我不再去愛你的時候才等到你愛自己！我累了真的累了我已流乾淚水，現在我想要一位能給我依靠給我安心感覺的人，就算我不愛他也好，只想簡簡單單的生活下去
I can't stop myself thinking of u.bcoz i miss u. is pain! is pain!
所有你跟佢既畫面所有對我既傷害,不能夠被忘記!你對佢既傷害只係微不足道,但我呢?一生都要帶著陰影做人!叫我點再接受返你?
我做唔到
我連朋友都不想做,永永遠遠忘記你
From Him
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3:57am 我傷害左你同佢，依刻佢揾我只可能佢無助，同唔甘心…佢怪我選擇你而我唔見佢… 這幾天我沒有別的，只有想著你的好，然後給你寫個短訊告訴你我想念你…傻傻的走到你家樓下看能不能看到你一眼…我沒給你証明到什麼，我根本找不到你，對我所做過的就只有別人告訴的… 我也不知道告訴了什麼，我不在乎…我只知道我真的愛你在乎你，最少我証明了給自己知道 … 你生氣，不原諒我…我明白也無能力一下子改變得了…但我想你知道我真的為你在慢慢改…但我知可能到時你已經不再愛我了。不用祝褔我跟他…我不會和他在一起，就算我寂寞…我要的是你。請不要攻擊我的話，我知錯了後我是真心的。我很想念你。
5:13am 我真的很想念你…
8:16am I still wanna spend the christmas with u...
11:08am 我只希望用時間用一点一滴的快樂去改變…
11:53am 我只希望你可以試，就算是朋友做起也好… 我會俾一切你知，唔再講大話
12:02pm 我是真心知錯的…對你的傷害，我想去補救…
12:05pm 先別說不能…我真的不想放棄你
14:05pm I really miss u, cant stop thinking of u...
15:28pm 我很愛妳…很想很想妳。
18:24pm 我也開始覺得自己煩了…但我真的很掛念妳…
21:57pm 我又傻傻的來到你家樓下，不知為什麼就只想見你…我願意去承擔對你所做的一切…我之前就像中了邪一樣，但本來的我不是那樣的，就請你見一見我吧… 為你，我願意等…
22:07pm 一直在想你的好，心就一直在痛…一直在痛…
23:57pm 我真的捨不得離開…就坐在車內想著你…你好好休息吧！我愛你…Angel… 謝謝你下來看我。很想念你，很想念啤。
2008/12/19 12:47am
Stan 說:
angel
Stan 說:
tonight, i went to kennedy town
Stan 說:
just hoping if i could bump into u...
stan 說:
我跟她說了有事問我我會完全坦白，希望佢唔會再揾你…
stan 說:
我真的很掛念你
angel
Stan 說:
tonight, i went to kennedy town
Stan 說:
just hoping if i could bump into u...
stan 說:
我跟她說了有事問我我會完全坦白，希望佢唔會再揾你…
stan 說:
我真的很掛念你
星期四, 12月 18, 2008
pls give me some peace!
Stan 已送出 2008/12/18 上午 06:12:
u here?
Stan 已送出 2008/12/18 下午 02:10:
u here?
Stan 已送出 2008/12/18 下午 03:05:
u here?
Stan 已送出 2008/12/18 下午 03:05:
pls dun ignore me...
無慧慧 說:
Jas
December 17 at 11:59pm
I'm so scare, do u mean u got illness from him?
He told me ur illness is the family one, ur sister got it too that's y u are suffering from this.....I'm so so worry abt that, pls call me and talk...
無慧慧 說:
u should tell her the truth. i hvn"t reply her yet. she text me 3 times already! pls dun lie again!
Stan 說:
I will try to stop her from bothering u
無慧慧 說:
我已經唔care佢,如果 唔想面對佢,我可以幫 答佢
Stan 說:
no need
Stan 說:
i dun what u 2 have contact, it should stop...
Stan 說:
u should get any burden
Stan 說:
not any more
無慧慧 說:
i dun care another lena..it is not the first time!
Stan 說:
not ur duty to do that
Stan 說:
also Lena wasnt trying to win me back
Stan 說:
i sent u a mail
Stan 已送出 2008/12/18 下午 03:35:
i miss u angel
無慧慧 說:
is over stan!
Stan 說:
...
Stan 說:
angel
無慧慧 說:
she has tried to hurt me, but u didn't stop it
無慧慧 說:
i hv been told u
無慧慧 說:
but y but y? i still got her mgs?
Stan 說:
i told her on the phone not to contact u
無慧慧 說:
y?y? dun give me some peace?
無慧慧 說:
hurt me again n again
Stan 說:
i know i have hurt u
Stan 說:
我知錯了
Stan 說:
真的我知錯了
無慧慧 說:
i didn't told her how u hur me what u did on me...everything everything! i protect u! im so stupid! still so kind to everyone!
Stan 說:
if u carry on ignoring me can make you feel better...i deserve it
Stan 說:
pls ignore her
Stan 說:
u have ur paece, just set ur facebook to not recieve msg from stranger
Stan 說:
if she doesnt have ur number...she wont bother u anymore
Stan 說:
its warm outside
Stan 說:
if u cant forgive me, i understand... just give me a chance to improve myself
Stan 說:
i wanna to be a better man
Stan 說:
i wanna be a better person for u
Stan 說:
for my sins
u here?
Stan 已送出 2008/12/18 下午 02:10:
u here?
Stan 已送出 2008/12/18 下午 03:05:
u here?
Stan 已送出 2008/12/18 下午 03:05:
pls dun ignore me...
無慧慧 說:
Jas
December 17 at 11:59pm
I'm so scare, do u mean u got illness from him?
He told me ur illness is the family one, ur sister got it too that's y u are suffering from this.....I'm so so worry abt that, pls call me and talk...
無慧慧 說:
u should tell her the truth. i hvn"t reply her yet. she text me 3 times already! pls dun lie again!
Stan 說:
I will try to stop her from bothering u
無慧慧 說:
我已經唔care佢,如果 唔想面對佢,我可以幫 答佢
Stan 說:
no need
Stan 說:
i dun what u 2 have contact, it should stop...
Stan 說:
u should get any burden
Stan 說:
not any more
無慧慧 說:
i dun care another lena..it is not the first time!
Stan 說:
not ur duty to do that
Stan 說:
also Lena wasnt trying to win me back
Stan 說:
i sent u a mail
Stan 已送出 2008/12/18 下午 03:35:
i miss u angel
無慧慧 說:
is over stan!
Stan 說:
...
Stan 說:
angel
無慧慧 說:
she has tried to hurt me, but u didn't stop it
無慧慧 說:
i hv been told u
無慧慧 說:
but y but y? i still got her mgs?
Stan 說:
i told her on the phone not to contact u
無慧慧 說:
y?y? dun give me some peace?
無慧慧 說:
hurt me again n again
Stan 說:
i know i have hurt u
Stan 說:
我知錯了
Stan 說:
真的我知錯了
無慧慧 說:
i didn't told her how u hur me what u did on me...everything everything! i protect u! im so stupid! still so kind to everyone!
Stan 說:
if u carry on ignoring me can make you feel better...i deserve it
Stan 說:
pls ignore her
Stan 說:
u have ur paece, just set ur facebook to not recieve msg from stranger
Stan 說:
if she doesnt have ur number...she wont bother u anymore
Stan 說:
its warm outside
Stan 說:
if u cant forgive me, i understand... just give me a chance to improve myself
Stan 說:
i wanna to be a better man
Stan 說:
i wanna be a better person for u
Stan 說:
for my sins
A Mail 12/18/2008
寄件人: Liu Stan
主題: Angel
日期: 2008 12 18 星期四 下午 3:21
I don't want to bother you, also I dont want her to... I thought u2 already had a talk, she called me last night and asked me questions, what she wants is to win, unlike u at the last moment u still protected me.. What I want is just let it go and try to do things better from now on...there is no losing or winning.. I am always yours, no matter u love me or hate me... on one hand I know I have hurt u so deeply and I couldnt forgive myself, maybe letting you go is the best punishment for me... but on the other I know I love you still, having the strongest feeling these couple of days, maybe they are right, you never know what you really love till you already lost it.. I just want to hold ur hand on the street once again and hold you to sleep with smile once again... exchanging present under the christmas tree once again, giving and loving once again... I am sorry for everything I did, once again..
主題: Angel
日期: 2008 12 18 星期四 下午 3:21
I don't want to bother you, also I dont want her to... I thought u2 already had a talk, she called me last night and asked me questions, what she wants is to win, unlike u at the last moment u still protected me.. What I want is just let it go and try to do things better from now on...there is no losing or winning.. I am always yours, no matter u love me or hate me... on one hand I know I have hurt u so deeply and I couldnt forgive myself, maybe letting you go is the best punishment for me... but on the other I know I love you still, having the strongest feeling these couple of days, maybe they are right, you never know what you really love till you already lost it.. I just want to hold ur hand on the street once again and hold you to sleep with smile once again... exchanging present under the christmas tree once again, giving and loving once again... I am sorry for everything I did, once again..
12/18/2008
如果要我無止境生活係陰影之下，每日擔驚受怕，要長期令自己痛苦傷心。我寧可選擇依一刻放棄，因為痛既感覺只會一陣子，當時間慢慢過去就會痊癒，再次起返身繼續等待另一個快樂俾我幸運既感覺！
係依幾日以嚟你所做既不但冇證明到你有幾愛我，反而錯上加錯做左一啲好無謂既事，應該做既就無好好去做！我好傷心！
我多謝你今次恨恨地傷害我，感謝你俾機會我清醒叫自己死心…
我唔知道我係咪中左個個女仔既鬼計要玩一拍兩散，雖然心入面唔憤氣，但當我諗清楚為一個從來冇好好咁對待自己既人去打依場仗，就算我知道我一定贏我都覺得冇意思冇意義…因為我只會繼續令自己痛苦落去！我比任何人更愛你，原諒你包容你，為你裝傻扮懵吞聲忍氣，但你不單冇珍惜反而一次又一次令我崩潰，你忍心嗎？我依家一無所有，你開心嗎？
From Him
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5:47am I miss u..cant sleep.
11:36am 我呢幾日係咪真係卦住你我好清楚，我只係諗住我地開心嘅時間，我就好傷心。我訓唔著今日番唔到工。我知我一直對你唔夠好，但係我真係做左決定，我諗你都感覺得到。我只知道我得到什麼也好驘了什麼也好你唔喺度乜嘢都無乜意思…只有你會開心唔開心都喺我身邊，我知錯了，真的知錯了…
14:28pm 我會為你去學珍惜…你今日唔可以立即當無事我明白，你想放棄我係我活該，但我會証明俾你睇我會改…
17:11pm 我真的很想念妳…
20:25pm I miss u...
係依幾日以嚟你所做既不但冇證明到你有幾愛我，反而錯上加錯做左一啲好無謂既事，應該做既就無好好去做！我好傷心！
我多謝你今次恨恨地傷害我，感謝你俾機會我清醒叫自己死心…
我唔知道我係咪中左個個女仔既鬼計要玩一拍兩散，雖然心入面唔憤氣，但當我諗清楚為一個從來冇好好咁對待自己既人去打依場仗，就算我知道我一定贏我都覺得冇意思冇意義…因為我只會繼續令自己痛苦落去！我比任何人更愛你，原諒你包容你，為你裝傻扮懵吞聲忍氣，但你不單冇珍惜反而一次又一次令我崩潰，你忍心嗎？我依家一無所有，你開心嗎？
From Him
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5:47am I miss u..cant sleep.
11:36am 我呢幾日係咪真係卦住你我好清楚，我只係諗住我地開心嘅時間，我就好傷心。我訓唔著今日番唔到工。我知我一直對你唔夠好，但係我真係做左決定，我諗你都感覺得到。我只知道我得到什麼也好驘了什麼也好你唔喺度乜嘢都無乜意思…只有你會開心唔開心都喺我身邊，我知錯了，真的知錯了…
14:28pm 我會為你去學珍惜…你今日唔可以立即當無事我明白，你想放棄我係我活該，但我會証明俾你睇我會改…
17:11pm 我真的很想念妳…
20:25pm I miss u...
星期三, 12月 17, 2008
last words
無慧慧 說:
once u choosed to deleted me...fine! i know what should i do!
stan 說:
no
無慧慧 說:
what u scare about? what made u afraid?
無慧慧 說:
fine!!!!!
stan 說:
i feel really bad for u.
stan 說:
i didnt what to bother u
stan 說:
but in my hear t i now i really really miss u
stan 說:
i m not afraid
stan 說:
also i knew she might add u for no reason, so i didnt want her to bother u
無慧慧 說:
y u deleted me on yr facebook? u deleted me on evrything? u lie again.
無慧慧 說:
she hv been try to add me
stan 說:
i have been calling u zillion time...i know u need some time and peace, but i really miss u
無慧慧 說:
is too late
stan 說:
no
無慧慧 說:
what u did is too late
stan 說:
i didnt mean to delete u
stan 說:
i made mistake
stan 說:
and u forgave me
stan 說:
please forgive me
stan 說:
please...
stan 說:
i know i made u really bad
stan 說:
it wasnt the really me...
stan 說:
i want to be a better person
stan 說:
when i got hoem last night....my tears just ran out
stan 說:
i miss u i miss u
stan 已送出 2008/12/17 下午 10:04:
i m so so sorry
stan 已送出 2008/12/17 下午 10:07:
please talk to me
無慧慧 說:
but what i need to do now,is delete u, ignore u,no more tears,no more lies,no more chances,,,,,forever forever!
Stan 已送出 2008/12/17 下午 10:44:
I dont need chances, I only need one. pls cure each other, i wanna be a btter man, for u...
once u choosed to deleted me...fine! i know what should i do!
stan 說:
no
無慧慧 說:
what u scare about? what made u afraid?
無慧慧 說:
fine!!!!!
stan 說:
i feel really bad for u.
stan 說:
i didnt what to bother u
stan 說:
but in my hear t i now i really really miss u
stan 說:
i m not afraid
stan 說:
also i knew she might add u for no reason, so i didnt want her to bother u
無慧慧 說:
y u deleted me on yr facebook? u deleted me on evrything? u lie again.
無慧慧 說:
she hv been try to add me
stan 說:
i have been calling u zillion time...i know u need some time and peace, but i really miss u
無慧慧 說:
is too late
stan 說:
no
無慧慧 說:
what u did is too late
stan 說:
i didnt mean to delete u
stan 說:
i made mistake
stan 說:
and u forgave me
stan 說:
please forgive me
stan 說:
please...
stan 說:
i know i made u really bad
stan 說:
it wasnt the really me...
stan 說:
i want to be a better person
stan 說:
when i got hoem last night....my tears just ran out
stan 說:
i miss u i miss u
stan 已送出 2008/12/17 下午 10:04:
i m so so sorry
stan 已送出 2008/12/17 下午 10:07:
please talk to me
無慧慧 說:
but what i need to do now,is delete u, ignore u,no more tears,no more lies,no more chances,,,,,forever forever!
Stan 已送出 2008/12/17 下午 10:44:
I dont need chances, I only need one. pls cure each other, i wanna be a btter man, for u...
12/17/2008
當你清醒既時候你就會發現其實你並唔係你所講咁掛住我咁愛我，因為你所做既只不過唔肯認輸，你以為所有所有都係你掌握之中由其是我，但當你覺得贏左個時一切就會打回原型，你繼續你既自私繼續傷害我！我去愛你並唔係一場遊戲唔會有輸唔會有贏！請你用心諗下你就會明白其實你依刻只係唔甘心唔憤氣，就算我再俾機會你都好，其實都係冇意思！
From Him
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8:52am I m so sorry... Plz try, plz try to forgive me..
15:50pm miss u...
16:20pm Sorry, i just cant stop thinking of u..
20:47pm Where are u where are u? How can i find u? I miss u so...
From Him
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8:52am I m so sorry... Plz try, plz try to forgive me..
15:50pm miss u...
16:20pm Sorry, i just cant stop thinking of u..
20:47pm Where are u where are u? How can i find u? I miss u so...
星期二, 12月 16, 2008
12/16/2008
14:07pm I know i might be bothering u, but i just wanna tell u no matter u gonna stay for me or not, i wont forget everything u did to me, i love u.
19:02pm I miss u a lot...
19:02pm I miss u a lot...
星期一, 12月 15, 2008
12/15/2008
B. dun worry me,i think i'll be fine this time.although its really hurt me, u made my heart full of tears.but i'll try to make it again just like before. left it down n let it go.
since the worstest period gone, i've been strong enough to handle these, nothing can defeat me now. n u also, darling, everyone hv their own mistake just depend how to forgive n forget by yrself. yea! im still that stupid angel, all bcoz i love u! but after this i m not sure that i can hv faith on u on me. i can't see, i can't find future, everything on u seem is unclear unfamiliar!
anyway, i m glad u a brave to face it this time. love u!
今朝曾經諗過嘗試再接受你原諒你，只因為你肯坦白！但當我發現你再講大話既時候，我就知道我要心死，因為你所有所有所有對我講既都係大話！我已經唔識你，睇唔到分唔出邊個係你！你要我知不突只仲要我見…我崩潰喇你滿足未？你迫我再度走回頭路！一次又一次我玩唔起！我放棄！我要心死！
我唔知點樣相信你既承諾？你點樣愛我點樣一齊行落去？點樣證明？而依核所有諾言我覺得只會令我失望，因為全部都係挽留我既既話並非出自真心！我太了解你！
From Him
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11:42am Thx.. I dunno what to say.. Plz get some rest.. Miss u
17:28pm Ben n jeff was really there, all i did was just playing fire... After everything every pressure i have been throught, i just wanted to be crazy n not concern abt others... I know i hv hurt u... But i dunno why i did that..
19:31pm I really miss you...
20:12pm I screwed up and i am very regret for what i did. I hv problem and i made a lot of mistakes, after august i already think i m the worst person ever, thats why i just let go n do all the shit.. And then i knew i miss u, but i was scared, scared of going back to u n wondering if that was the right thing, but the more i be with u the more i love u, i didnt say it just becoz i was scared, scared of taking responsibility... But in the pass 2 week, i was clear.. Started think i should stop all this shit.. And focus on what i got.. Now i lost u, lost the one who care of me most... What happen to me next i deserve it, maybe u r too good for me, i dun deserve u.. What i think helpless is why when i wanna be good, god didnt give me chance... When i wanna start saving, i lost money, when i wanna start giving, god doesnt give me any chance... maybe i did too much bad stuff.. Its a punishment... what i wanna say is... I love u n will always love u.
22:59pm can i hear ur voice?
since the worstest period gone, i've been strong enough to handle these, nothing can defeat me now. n u also, darling, everyone hv their own mistake just depend how to forgive n forget by yrself. yea! im still that stupid angel, all bcoz i love u! but after this i m not sure that i can hv faith on u on me. i can't see, i can't find future, everything on u seem is unclear unfamiliar!
anyway, i m glad u a brave to face it this time. love u!
今朝曾經諗過嘗試再接受你原諒你，只因為你肯坦白！但當我發現你再講大話既時候，我就知道我要心死，因為你所有所有所有對我講既都係大話！我已經唔識你，睇唔到分唔出邊個係你！你要我知不突只仲要我見…我崩潰喇你滿足未？你迫我再度走回頭路！一次又一次我玩唔起！我放棄！我要心死！
我唔知點樣相信你既承諾？你點樣愛我點樣一齊行落去？點樣證明？而依核所有諾言我覺得只會令我失望，因為全部都係挽留我既既話並非出自真心！我太了解你！
From Him
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11:42am Thx.. I dunno what to say.. Plz get some rest.. Miss u
17:28pm Ben n jeff was really there, all i did was just playing fire... After everything every pressure i have been throught, i just wanted to be crazy n not concern abt others... I know i hv hurt u... But i dunno why i did that..
19:31pm I really miss you...
20:12pm I screwed up and i am very regret for what i did. I hv problem and i made a lot of mistakes, after august i already think i m the worst person ever, thats why i just let go n do all the shit.. And then i knew i miss u, but i was scared, scared of going back to u n wondering if that was the right thing, but the more i be with u the more i love u, i didnt say it just becoz i was scared, scared of taking responsibility... But in the pass 2 week, i was clear.. Started think i should stop all this shit.. And focus on what i got.. Now i lost u, lost the one who care of me most... What happen to me next i deserve it, maybe u r too good for me, i dun deserve u.. What i think helpless is why when i wanna be good, god didnt give me chance... When i wanna start saving, i lost money, when i wanna start giving, god doesnt give me any chance... maybe i did too much bad stuff.. Its a punishment... what i wanna say is... I love u n will always love u.
22:59pm can i hear ur voice?
星期日, 12月 14, 2008
星期六, 12月 13, 2008
星期四, 12月 11, 2008
每日一“智” － 生活篇
話說最近“智”童搬屋
一個人住但衣衫鞋物多不勝數
等如四個人將所有雜物加起來
搬運叔叔都說奇觀奇觀
另一方面智童自稱托世王子
一生皇帝命
懶就不在話下
亂就更不用多說
逼於無奈之下家務謂有由本人來代勞
害我雙手爆裂
最氣憤請他幫忙代買“錫曬你”
智童可以裝扮懵然不知
頓時想送上‘四字真言’
當作回禮
“智”童智障程度奇高
創意念頭多才多藝
底褲都要連著幾日
寧願買新都懶得洗洗衣服
更出人意表的莫過於
沖完涼用底褲抹頭底褲抹身
不饋為創作總監
怪異行為多羅羅
一個人住但衣衫鞋物多不勝數
等如四個人將所有雜物加起來
搬運叔叔都說奇觀奇觀
另一方面智童自稱托世王子
一生皇帝命
懶就不在話下
亂就更不用多說
逼於無奈之下家務謂有由本人來代勞
害我雙手爆裂
最氣憤請他幫忙代買“錫曬你”
智童可以裝扮懵然不知
頓時想送上‘四字真言’
當作回禮
“智”童智障程度奇高
創意念頭多才多藝
底褲都要連著幾日
寧願買新都懶得洗洗衣服
更出人意表的莫過於
沖完涼用底褲抹頭底褲抹身
不饋為創作總監
怪異行為多羅羅
星期日, 12月 07, 2008
星期四, 12月 04, 2008
星期三, 12月 03, 2008
DISCOURAGED
是命是運已經不必探究
歎息只因為氣餒
呆滯只因為等待
呼一口氣…喊一聲唉
又浪費一天
想找個聽眾欣賞叫歎聲
才發現也是天意弄人
注定孤立無援
＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿
後記：
幸好有人演技算不錯
不管他是痴是傻
起碼逗我歡喜過
辛苦你了！
歎息只因為氣餒
呆滯只因為等待
呼一口氣…喊一聲唉
又浪費一天
想找個聽眾欣賞叫歎聲
才發現也是天意弄人
注定孤立無援
＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿
後記：
幸好有人演技算不錯
不管他是痴是傻
起碼逗我歡喜過
辛苦你了！
星期二, 12月 02, 2008
星期一, 12月 01, 2008
Fabulous 2008
2008 Showcasing......
the Chaos, Good times, Decadence and Hedonism of me
Is brilliant,
if u are brave enough to venture it.
Is beautiful,
if everything get back to zero.
Love should be shining,
Life should be thriving.
But on me???BOTH XXXXING COMPLICATED
what is fake, what is real.
How could i know?
just found this totally me
" An Maudlin Angel"
the Chaos, Good times, Decadence and Hedonism of me
Is brilliant,
if u are brave enough to venture it.
Is beautiful,
if everything get back to zero.
Love should be shining,
Life should be thriving.
But on me???BOTH XXXXING COMPLICATED
what is fake, what is real.
How could i know?
just found this totally me
" An Maudlin Angel"
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